for some fucking unknown reason im mentally deranged and can't seem to get things right. i suffer from terrible mood swings and half of the time im feeling bloody useless while the other half is that im super happy. im missing someone so badly and apparently i can't stop thinking about it. and then im never ever suceeding in anything that i bloody want to do in life. DANG. LOL -.-.-.-.-.----.

diao like crazy. diao diao diao diao. in the four chinese tones. i hate salmon. i hate fish. i hate seafood. chewy smelly fishy gahhy gahhy blehblehbleh. ITS SO FREAKING GROSS LIKE NUTS IN A CONTAINERS. AND I FUCKING HATE NUTS. THEY ARE SMELLY. apparently i am hazelnut. LOL -.-

and wtf im suppose to do this thing from W's blog so here goes. i never did something like this before. hope i rock it. :) anyway fuck mans, i have a sudden craze over leejunki <3

AND WHAT THE HELL I KEEP USING THE F WORD FOR SOME UNKNOWN REASON. THANKS TO SOME PEOPLE >.>

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Getting into you - Relient K

(according to what i think. i think that statement means that im not happy with something when someone asks me if its okay. you know im that kind of person that can't stop thinking about something until its what i want it to be. like revenge and all. LOL [what revenge ._.] so yup it'll get into me and irritate me until i get what i want <3 so just let me get stuff my way]

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
The time of my life - David Cook

(WTF? THAT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. I SO WANNA REDO IT. im gonna redo it :D)

pop is dead - miyavi

(WTH IS THAT DOING IN HERE. ITS NOT MY SONG @.@)

(okay im cheating -.- i've been forwarding till i found a good one. but there aint any. TT. now im at soul mate - natasha bedingfield <3 maybe there's another reason for this quizzzy. for me to find the nice songs and kind of think? okay what am i talking. amazingly im looking forward to school. i enjoy seeing P <3 and i enjoy seeing my leejunki <3 omfgg i miss her :( and tongtong too <3 and then banana :D and TAAAY. and then im having so much freaking crap everyday im kind of wishing that i can stay in sec school forever with all the ultraviolet people too and 3wisdom and then we'll just crap all day. and then the teachers just keep giving us homework <3

im partially in love with homework. it gives me a goal. LOL. sometimes. you know. it makes me feel like i have something to do. somehow. its shiok. like when you finish an essay, there's the cheng jiu gan like how P says. <3

who doesn't love for, someone to hold;
who knows how to love you, without being told.
soul mate - natasha bedingfield.
one of my 4stars songs <3)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Move Along - The All-American Rejects

(maybe i just should move along, when everything is wrong, we move along. but nothing is wrong. today im feeling amazingly fascinated. you know the starting of this song sounded like fascination by alphabeat. so maybe its kind of related. yes, fascination <3)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Say Goodbye - Sanctus Real

(to say goodbye? to leave the earth and accomplish a fufilling life and then i can go and say goodbye peacefully. LOL. my life's purpose is that probably. seems quite real. always felt like dying sometimes but then there are those amazing people there that keep my life so brilliant <3)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Soul Mate - Natasha Bedingfield

(again? 0.0 lol. this makes sense though. treasuring my soul mates. <3
you're not easy to find.
is it possible, mr lovable.

my motto, never bitch, never backstab. and i don't do that. i swear. i freaking love my friends. <3 and i just want to type more cause i hate forwarding the songs. its like so cut. then you feel uncomplished. and ultraviolet, i love you guys <3
and i do love you too banana and leejunki, and tongtong and C and all the one purity siao gah liao people <3 oh man see im blogging about all of you all. blog about me too <3 :D

WHO DOESN'T LOVE FOR
SOMEONE TO HOLD,
who knows to love you
without being told.
or somebody tell me
why im on my own
if there's a soul mate for everyone.

freak, maybe my motto is to find my soul mate. that's possible. or maybe i haven't realised her/he even though she/he's been there.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Single - Natasha Bedingfield.

(i realised that me and natasha bedingfield has fate @.@ lol. the first song i listened to was unwritted by her <3 the shampoo advertisement song. makes me feel happy <3


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Itsy Bitsy Spider - Barney

(WTH? LOL. this song was downloaded while making W's video @.@ its cute. yes my parents are like itsy bitsy spiders, crawling here and there, spying, poking their noses and half of the time irritating me but i guess i somehow love them too <3


WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Superstar - Jamelia

(yes i did want to be a star before. this song makes me happy. im feeling happy now somehow -.-
there's something about this, lets keep it moving, cause i really want to rock with you. i don't know what it is, that makes me feel like this, i don't know who you are, but you must be some kind of superstar <3

I KNOW. i think about suceeding in life. being a superstar does refer to suceeding. and thats what i want to do <3)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Awakening - Switchfood

(well normally maths is draggy. so 2 + 2 is awakening cause its basic maths that use to be so fascinating. oh well, maths is still fascinating <3 i did love maths all the while anyway. its so different from languages <3 its special and it doesn't require that much brainpower. )

and just mentioning, the fact that i just came back from dinner so i went to drink tapwater instead of bothering to pour a cup of dechlorinated water. and it tasted funny. i used to enjoy drinking tap water. ._.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
ohman, this is scary. i hope its fine. lets just say C is my best friend. okay here goes. <3

Patience - Take that

(omfg, this so makes sense.
cause i,
i just need time,
my heart is known as the feeling
so why am i still healing,
just try
have a little patience)

yes. explains me and C. sometimes i find her SO FREAKING ANNOYING. but maybe im the annoying one so yes we're just two annoying people that cause extra chaos. somehow maybe doing FandN with you could be fun <3 im so freaking sorry for all the times i walked out on you. you're so wonderful chasing after me. sounds freaking dramatic like the guy chasing the girl and LOL. to like ask for forgiveness, and yes i freaking enjoyed that <3 and you're so right. im like all talk but my heart.. yes baby, we'll just try to have patience for each other. i mean we know we're both annoying. )

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
oh 0.0 scary. i don't really know who i like. if its crush, er. er. i don't have one? but i like lee jun ki and the real lee jun ki <3<3 super hot gay babe :) and yes he's so cute and so is she. HAHA. i think im going mad. freak i used to prefer actors to singers all the while anyway <3 okay should i press play now @.@

Happy Together - Simple Plan

(yes, if only we could be happy together, oh man please come to singapore. <3)
and please please please miss me more <3
what the hell happens if i freaking become that -.- somehow i think this post is so super private. maybe i shouldn't even submit it. gah. one day i'll just realise that im so stupid. yes i'll get over it. :( and please don't read this. zzzx.

Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night, it's only right
To think about the girl you love and hold her tight
So happy together

If I should call you up, invest a dime
And you say you belong to me and ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be, so very fine
So happy together

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life


WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Viva La Vida - Coldplay

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become

Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

freaking good song, download it <3
(yes i used to rule the word ;D)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Come on Over - Jessica Simpson

I need you now, I need you bad,
I need you baby lookin just like that.
Don't pack your bag dont make me wait,
I wanna kiss that smile on your face.
I need you warped up in these arms,
I want you just the way you are,
Come on over.

(no, im not gonna be a prostitute! @.@ or maybe im gonna be like so in love and that im singing that to lee jun ki LOL. oh man, come to singapore! but actors don't travel do they :(


WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Tongue Tied - Faber Drive

(HAHA THIS IS SO COOL. yes i feel tongue tied, awkwardness, yet love <3 LOL.)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
How do I breathe - Mario Barrett

(lol, im trouble till they can't breathe -.-)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
lol. this is scary.

Let Me Take you There - Plain White T's

i know, a place that we can go to,
a place that no one knows you, they won't know who we are.
i know, a place that we can run to,
and do all those things we want to, they won't know who we are.
let me take you there,
i wanna take you there <3

(lol honeymoon? i know i won't be getting married anyway. don't intend to. ._.)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Christmas Time is Here - Alvin and the chipmunks

(@.@ when i die christmas is here. yes party when i die -.- LOL)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Cool - Gwen Stefani

(yeah, acting cool 0.0 LOL)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
If you believe - Rachel Lampa

(not familiar of this song. lol. random song from someone @.@ gah )
i love my friends, i think they're wonderful <3
they're better than all the kpop and jpop and all the pop and rock people added together :)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
The Reason I live - Hillsong United

(this makes me -.- lol. the reason that i live is the worst thing that could happen. maybe next time i'll invent a bomb or something and destroy the earth. LOL then thats the worst thing that could happen, cause im in the earth. or maybe i'll become the next ijimae <3)


HOW WILL YOU DIE?
LOVE - Ashlee Simpson

(maybe i'll be in some triangle love with a third party and then i get killed out of someone's jealousy :O)

this was W's ans LOL
When You Look Me In The Eyes-Jonas Brothers
(yes when jae looks into your eyes cause he's too hot right :D)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Heaven - Bryan Adams

(err? heaven <3 jesus <3)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
You - Switchfoot

(<3)


WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Since You've Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson

(yes since ultraviolet has been gone, it makes me cry. and im sure i'll be missing 3wisdom when i graduate too D:)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Suddenly I See - KT Tunstall

(ERRRR? suddenly i see that maybe i'll get married, or maybe not -.- who cares.)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Pictures of You - The Last Goodnight

(yes im freaking scared of the dark and night. and mirrors and reflective surfaces at night :((( )
omg ijimae is starting soon. got to chiong this. can't crap so much -.-

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
I'm not Ashamed - Hillsong United

(yeah im not ashamed if someone likes me? okay wth doesn't make sense 0.0)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Beautiful Disaster - Kelly Clarkson

(nice song, download it <3 )

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
History - Funeral For a Friend

(history is hurting me, somewhat)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
It End's Tonight - The All-American Rejects

(LOL)

IJIMAE <33333
im downloading the king and the clown into my zen. weeee :)